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Just a Little Bit of Interest?
Aug. 7th, 2014 06:51 amCaveat: Another whiney post. I literally (or is it figuratively... I suppose I could write it in my paper journal...) have no other outlet...
Been in CA for a couple of weeks now, and I'm not going to lie, I'm a little bit disappointed and shocked that nobody really seems to give a damn that I'm pregnant. Maybe it's because so many other people have done it before. But it's all new to me, and it's HEAVILY on my mind, and we all just pretend like everything is status quo. I'm the only one who ever brings it up, and I always feel kind of lame and guilty for bringing it up. Like I don't really count as pregnant yet because I'm only 9 weeks.
I want people to be excited for me. I want people to pamper me a little (like, maybe say once in awhile "how are you feeling?"), and have advice, and want to talk about their own experiences. I want them to think that this is a special time for me, and share it with me. Instead I just suffer the nausea and cramps, and sore boobs, and mood swings in silence. I'm really looking forward to David getting here on Sunday, cause I know that at least he gives a damn that I'm pregnant.
It's just not fair. Everyone else I know who has been pregnant has families that are just over the moon for them! I don't have a single family member who feels that way...
David's mum and dad think we're being dumb for having a family in our current situation, and they aren't overly excited about being grandparents. They said "well, that's what you wanted, so congratulations. We'll look forward to seeing them on holidays."
My mom says I need to stop worrying about things so much because I'm being ridiculous, and guilt trips me about how she'll be a grandma but won't ever see the grandkids because I moved to England.
My dad? Laughable, haven't talked to him in over a decade, I don't even think he knows I live in England or am married.
My maternal grandparents- completely uninterested. They have a bunch of grandkids already who are a lot closer. And my younger brother and his soon to be wife are clearly the favourites and all that they really have time for. And though this is the first great grandkid, they don't really seem to care one way or the other.
My paternal grandparents- They are happy for me, but their family is so freakin huge that it's just yet another baby being born- and one that's 6000 miles away, so it's really not that big of a deal for them.
My siblings- Not a single one of them even wrote me back to say congratulations when I emailed them telling them I was pregnant. Apparently 1 or 2 of them told my Aunt Sharlene that I "wasn't sure if I was pregnant"... which has never been the case. I *did* mention that the first trimester is a tricky time, and that 1 in 4 babies don't survive it. But none of them care enough to have said a single word about it to me this whole time.
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And of course Tony just had a baby, and I'm friends with his mom on facebook (because she is awesome!) and watching her reaction to her granddaughter being born (just the facebook reaction!) was just so lovely and moving... and it's hard to not feel a sense of loss that my mother-in-law could have been somebody like that.
I don't want oodles of attention... but a little bit of acknowledgement from my family for what I'm going through would certainly be nice.
Been in CA for a couple of weeks now, and I'm not going to lie, I'm a little bit disappointed and shocked that nobody really seems to give a damn that I'm pregnant. Maybe it's because so many other people have done it before. But it's all new to me, and it's HEAVILY on my mind, and we all just pretend like everything is status quo. I'm the only one who ever brings it up, and I always feel kind of lame and guilty for bringing it up. Like I don't really count as pregnant yet because I'm only 9 weeks.
I want people to be excited for me. I want people to pamper me a little (like, maybe say once in awhile "how are you feeling?"), and have advice, and want to talk about their own experiences. I want them to think that this is a special time for me, and share it with me. Instead I just suffer the nausea and cramps, and sore boobs, and mood swings in silence. I'm really looking forward to David getting here on Sunday, cause I know that at least he gives a damn that I'm pregnant.
It's just not fair. Everyone else I know who has been pregnant has families that are just over the moon for them! I don't have a single family member who feels that way...
David's mum and dad think we're being dumb for having a family in our current situation, and they aren't overly excited about being grandparents. They said "well, that's what you wanted, so congratulations. We'll look forward to seeing them on holidays."
My mom says I need to stop worrying about things so much because I'm being ridiculous, and guilt trips me about how she'll be a grandma but won't ever see the grandkids because I moved to England.
My dad? Laughable, haven't talked to him in over a decade, I don't even think he knows I live in England or am married.
My maternal grandparents- completely uninterested. They have a bunch of grandkids already who are a lot closer. And my younger brother and his soon to be wife are clearly the favourites and all that they really have time for. And though this is the first great grandkid, they don't really seem to care one way or the other.
My paternal grandparents- They are happy for me, but their family is so freakin huge that it's just yet another baby being born- and one that's 6000 miles away, so it's really not that big of a deal for them.
My siblings- Not a single one of them even wrote me back to say congratulations when I emailed them telling them I was pregnant. Apparently 1 or 2 of them told my Aunt Sharlene that I "wasn't sure if I was pregnant"... which has never been the case. I *did* mention that the first trimester is a tricky time, and that 1 in 4 babies don't survive it. But none of them care enough to have said a single word about it to me this whole time.
---
And of course Tony just had a baby, and I'm friends with his mom on facebook (because she is awesome!) and watching her reaction to her granddaughter being born (just the facebook reaction!) was just so lovely and moving... and it's hard to not feel a sense of loss that my mother-in-law could have been somebody like that.
I don't want oodles of attention... but a little bit of acknowledgement from my family for what I'm going through would certainly be nice.
